3.23.2009

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Charlie turned 11 months old today. I can not wait for him to turn one year old. Isn't that awful? I should enjoy him as a baby, but as his birthday approaches, all I see is freedom.

I always thought I would nurse my kids until they were 2. Well, nursing Charlie has been a nightmare. Thrush, psoriasis, more thrush, biting, refuses a bottle, more psoriasis, bleeding... I just can't wait for it to be over. The only reason I do it now is because I can see the finish line.

If I can hold off on beginning to wean him until he is one year old, I don't have to buy formula. Yes, I really am that cheap. Besides, how would I give the formula to him? He won't take a bottle. He's starting to take a sippy cup, but even that isn't consistent enough for me to leave him or pump.

On paper, I should be able to leave my 11 month old for 4 hours. However, this past weekend I tried to go to the movies without Charlie and 3 hours into it, Erik was flooding me with text messages about Charlie crying uncontrollably. It's things like this that depress me. I get such a sad feeling when I think that I can't go anywhere for more than a few hours without a baby in tow. I know this makes me sound incredibly selfish.

So, happy 11 month birthday, Churros! I can see the light!

15 comments:

  1. Wow Cristin I can relate COMPLETELY!! I can't go anywhere for more than a few hours because it's hell for whoever is watching Chandler. But hopefully life will get much better for you now! Congrats on making it a year with nursing, that is awesome, my goal is to be able to make it that long!

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  2. p.s... that picture of him is ADORABLE!! I love his little toothy grin :D

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  3. Cooper's been 1 for a few weeks and I keep thinking, "so, we're almost done with this, right?" But not yet. I haven't had the awful go that you've had, but I am getting antsy that maybe he'll never ween himself. I know that's not true, but I keep thinking it anyway.

    And Charlie is so cute. And he looks so happy.

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  4. I am just as cheap! I am still nursing RYan and he turned one the beggining of the month! Now I am too cheap to spend $ on whole milk!

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  5. You're not selfish to want some time to yourself. I'm always ready to wean by age 1. This is the first time I have not had thrush, bleeding, or clugged ducts. Noah doesn't have any teeth yet so that could change. That first birthday is a celebration for my child and my breasts. Maybe I'm selfish b/c I don't feel a bit guilty weaning my child by age 1. I'm done at that point.

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  6. I see you've moved me off of your favorites list...but I'm mature enough to understand why. Just remember Charlie doesn't have the maturity to understand the weaning, so hopefully you can take it slow so he stays the happy little boy that he is. I'm proud of you for sticking it out this past year with your various issues. I'm praying Charlie likes the taste of cow's milk and all goes smoothly.

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  7. I feel your pain. I finally gave up at ten months with Jonah. But as hard as it was, it was the best decision. I felt like my sanity was leaving me more and more as I dealt with constant biting and his attachment to "me" all night. ahh.. it makes me cringe to think about it. Is Charlie walking?

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  8. I am right there with you and your other commenters. I especially like the comment about 1st birthday being a celebration for the child and the breasts. It is definitely liberating for you and your body when the baby is done nursing! I like not having to deal with the whole expensive formula and making bottles and all. As ChloƩ is now 7 months and taking solids, I thought I was a little bit "off the hook" and could come a go a bit without her, but she ends up just crying for me and only me when I have left. At the same time, my french neighbor upstairs just had her second baby last month and reported to me that she tried the breastfeeding thing again and just couldn't keep doing it after 4 days in the hospital. Such a foreign idea to someone who does commit to the first year of breastfeeding.

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  9. YAY One more month to go! Adorable picture by the way!

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  10. Yeah, I feel your pain. I nursed Lizette until she was 10 months, because I was bleeding and bruised so bad. I hope the next baby won't bite so hard.

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  11. Yeah it makes you sound selfish. And it makes me sound selfish when I say that's why I don't have kids. Selfish, selfish, the both of us.

    But I guess that doesn't really make you feel better, or solve your problem... Sorry.

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  12. I don't think I could endure all that pain and still want to continue. That's pretty admiring! I really don't think you sound selfish at all!

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  13. Tell me about it - I went to Provo (from SLC) twice yesterday with a half hour turnaround time so I could nurse Grace. Why didn't I keep up with feeding her with a bottle periodically?

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  14. Charlie is sooooo cute! You're going to have to keep a close eye on that one! I feel you're pain...well, not really since I weaned Emma but I did about a month ago. You're a tougher woman than I am...as soon as they start bitting i'm out. I did however wean Sarah at 10 months and went straight to a sippy and whole milk. I got the ok from my pediatrician and she loved it, I loved it....but I guess you're almost there. Hope the last few weeks don't kill you!

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  15. I'm going to be in your same spot in 3 months. Carsten won't take a bottle (I did buy formula but he won't drink it.) I have given him juice boxes and he does pretty good with them. So when I have to be gone Kevin can feed him some oatmeal and give him apple juice. Luckily he also will go to sleep when he put him down in the crib. Good luck with the weaning. I'm obviously anxious to see how that goes.

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